Dreams/Nightmares

"I have had dreams and I have had nightmares, but I have conquered my nightmares because of my dreams."

-Jonas Salk

How can you not see the hurt that your words caused? How can you not feel the pain that you've caused others? How can you say that what I feel is unnatural without even knowing what I feel? How do you know that it is wrong? Are you scared? Why are you scared? Is it wrong for me to dream to be with someone that I love for all time?

I have nightmares. Nightmares that currently have been brought on by you. They are filled with you as the demons and monsters. Chasing, growling, and screaming at me. Constantly trying to pull me down. Like Dr. Salk, I too conquer my nightmares with my Dreams. Even if it is one dream, it is mine.

I am tired of taking a back seat to other's feelings. What about me? Why do I have to sit quietly when everyone else gets to welcome over their friends and loved ones? Why do I need to be cautious of who comes to see me? Why should I live in fear? Living in fear, is not living.

So many people have lost hope, faith and themselves in the search of finding what others have said they should be. But God made man in his image. He gave all men the mind, body and soul that he created.

Dreaming is not only a way to escape from the hurt and suffering of reality, but it is a way to build a brighter future.

I want to see the Trevi Fountain. I want to climb the steps of the Eiffel Tower. I want to get lost in the hallways of the Tate Modern Museum. These are all things that I want. But these are not the things I dream for.

I dream of getting married to a man who I love and respect. I dream of having a home that is welcomed to all. And finally, I dream of starting a family.

These are my dreams. These are what I am working for. I know it might take years before all of my dreams come true, but I know that when they do, all of the hard work will be paid off. And when I sleep at night, my dreams will conquer my nightmares.